As I write this, my mind is spinning. I am so thrilled, and so in awe. I was just blessed, and I almost feel as if I am in shock.
So, long story short, I have been job hunting. My current position just had major lay-offs, and though I was spared, my hours were cut by more than half. This was not good for me, by any means, as some of you know, my husband and I have been struggling with infertility. Every extra penny we have has been spent towards testing, which is not covered by our insurance. Though they have found nothing wrong with us, IVF has been suggested, and if you don’t know how much that costs, just Google it. It’s extremely expensive. We haven’t decided to go that route, my husband isn’t fond of the idea and honestly either am I. Not because of the money, but because I don’t feel that it fits our faith picture. That may change, of course, but for now, I save money, or try too, and we go about procreation in the traditional way. Anyway, I digress.
So the cuts at work were a major backslide for me and my pocketbook. To remedy this, I have been applying for new jobs, and sending resumes out like crazy. I tend to overdo things sometimes (read my infertility post and you can see my try everything attitude). I can not even tell you how many applications and resumes are floating around out there with my name on them. I feel a little promiscuous in the job hunting category! As if my name may be written on a bathroom stall saying “Needs work now, call ###-###-####.” Honestly, I exaggerate, but not by much. I’ve applied almost everywhere I can think of! And prayed, prayed, prayed!
Two nights ago, after mild anxiety that I managed to quell with God’s help, I realized everything was going to be okay. I felt comforted. At peace. Almost as if the Lord had said, “Relax kid, I got this.” I went to sleep like a baby.
Yesterday, I got a phone call from a lady, and though the phone call was slightly choppy, I was asked to come in for an interview today, and I agreed. I had been wondering if anyone was ever going to call me!
So today, I got prettied up, drove to my interview, felt nervous, and prayed. Took a deep breath, walked up to the door, tried to open it. It was locked. What??? I was confused, read a sign that said, for service ring bell. I did. Nervous again.
A man opens the door, let’s me in. Asks how he can help me. I explain that I have an interview. He looks slightly confused but tells me to have a seat, and that he will get Chris for me. Now I’m confused because my interview is supposed to be with a Katie. Oh, well. Things change. Maybe something happened, who knows? More deep breathing while I’m waiting, trying to appear calm, and as if I’m not deep breathing. It’s a talent of mine. Looking calm when I am a nervous wreck.
So here comes Chris. We introduce ourselves, shake hands, he explains that he can’t find my application, but that “she” (he must mean Katie) must have misplaced it, because things are a little hectic right now.
I sit down and it’s go time. I now have to convince this man that I am perfect for this job that I know next to nothing about. We talk. He questions. I answer. We smile, and even laugh about something at one point. He hires me. I am actually hired, on the spot! Praise God!
But wait….. That’s not all folks. Seriously. I leave. I’m driving home. I get a phone call. From someone named Chris. He is very kind, but asks me about my interview that I scheduled with Katie. He asks where I am, and if maybe they have the time wrong? There is an awkward silence for about 15 seconds. I gather my wits, and say, “I am so confused, Chris. I just had my interview with you, and you hired me.” It’s now his turn for awkward silence.
To sum things up, we talk for a few moments. We figure it out. I never had an interview at the place that hired me. The Chris I’m now talking to is a completely different Chris, at a completely different company, at a completely different address! I can not believe how I even managed to mix that up that badly! I apologise to him, we laugh, he congratulates me, we hang up. Wow.
Next, I call “other Chris”. I’m a little worried, because now that I think about it, I realize that I may never have even applied to this place that gave me a job. I considered them, thought about it, intended to, but the more I think about it, the more convinced I become that I did not. So I call, because I have to set things straight. I explain everything. I wait for his response.
“Do you still want the position? Because I think you’re a good fit, regardless of how you ended up here.”
Just wow. Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes! I want to yell, but I don’t. I just tell him yes, and we laugh again and I hang up.
What just happened? Ummmmm….. I just got a job at a place I didn’t apply for, that I didn’t even have an interview for. At a place with a locked door. LOCKED.
I truly believe God just opened a door for me. I really do. I can not shake this almost supernatural feeling, this complete shock. This amazing blessing. And I give all the glory to God. He is amazing. He never fails to amaze me, surprise me, and delight me.
Keep praying. You’re answer may come from somewhere you never expect. In fact, it probably will. I think God does that on purpose, with a huge smile on his perfect, holy face. So we know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that was Him. Keep praying.
I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength yet you kept my word and have not denied my name. – Revelations 3:8