I Found Somebody New

Who or what do you need to leave behind? Whether it be a person, a habit, or a lifestyle, today is your lucky day. Walk this way. Walk away.

It is time for me to walk away….

I’m finished with you, and it is time for me to leave you behind. I thought we would be together forever, you and I, but it wasn’t meant to be, and I’m not sorry at all. There are too many reasons why this has to end, and though this may seem a bit abrupt to you, to me it was a long time in coming. I’ve waited what feels like an eternity to be free of you. Too long was I chained to you, and the disastrous emotions you evoked in me. I’m telling you here, and now, that I am done.

I’m done with Disrespect. I’m done with horrible words, name-calling, and all the insecurities your cruel mouth issued to me. I’ve gone deaf to your verbal assaults, I no longer even hear them anymore. Goodbye, Disrespect. I’m no longer listening.

I’m vacating the premises, Betrayal. No longer will you break my heart. No longer will you find me sitting alone on a park bench, my face puffy from crying, because of you. The four chambers of my heart do not beat for you anymore, and they do not break for you at all. No more tears will make their lonely trail down my cheeks, no more ruined mascara, no more ruined days. You no longer have that power over me. I will never again sit alone in my suffering, begging you to take me back to your devious ways, begging you to love me like I loved you. I’ve given myself an eviction from your house of lies, and this is my final, and only notice. Sayonara Betrayal. I’m moving on, moving out, and I will not be leaving you with a forwarding address.

Leave me alone, Loneliness. I no longer need you around. I have been enjoying time away from you, time with others, and I recognize now your manipulative ways. You made me feel that being alone was the only way to be, the least painful way, and you gave me nothing to show for it. In fact, you have shown me nothing, because that is what you are, nothing. You are devoid and black, a gaping hole of emptiness that tried to swallow all of my joy. I am no longer addicted to your solitary darkness. I no longer accept your invitation, your beckoning of safety in solitude, your careful whispers that you will protect me from all of my pain. I look at you and see nothing, so I no longer look at you at all. I’m blind to your ploys. Farewell, Loneliness. My eyes have been opened, I can no longer see you anymore.

I’m running away, Liar. Don’t try to find me. Don’t act is if you need me, or like you want me, because your voice is poison and the lies are no longer believable. Those false words hover in the air with a hollow sound, wavering in their instability. Your once inviting syllables of deceit are no longer enticing to me, they no longer ring true. I’m holding hands with truth now, and together, our fingers laced in an unbreakable grasp, we are running like children, full of laughter and glee, running away from you. Quit following me, because I promise you that you will never catch me now. I will keep this promise, though you broke yours, so many, many times. Stop chasing me, Liar. My running partner is too swift, too sure, too true. I’m leaving you in the dust, leaving you far behind. Adios, Liar. I’m running far, far away.

I have abandoned you, Fear. Abandoned you as you abandoned me all those long and lonely nights, when you left me shaking with uncontrollable anxiety. Today, my hands no longer shake, they no longer tremble. I look down at my hands, strong, capable, beautiful hands, and I smile, for they are quite steady now. The calm, the peace, and the security that has replaced your cold and panicky ways are here to stay. I’m done with your icy caress around my heart, I no longer feel your cold fingers trailing down my spine. Peace out, Fear. I just can’t feel you anymore.

I am done, I have moved, I am deaf to you, I am blind to you, I have left you. There’s a restraining order against you in my heart which will be enforced at all costs. You are officially banned from me. Banned for life.

All this because there is somebody new. I have found someone else, and we are now inseparable. Try as you might, you no longer have the power to interfere.

I have found respect, and it sounds so beautiful. I have found loyalty’s home, and it is the prettiest house I have ever lived in. I have found companionship and it looks like light, like a gorgeous sunrise after a black, starless night. I have found truth, I am running along side of honesty, and the wind and sunshine on my smiling face feels like heaven.

You are no longer welcome here. You. That disrespectful, betraying, lonely, liar. This is goodbye. Forever.

So leave me alone. Leave me be. My heart is no longer trapped by you, and your cold and hostile ways. You no longer have me wrapped around your little finger, because I have unraveled myself from your conniving ways.

I have true love. I have found someone who loves me, listens to me, and builds me up. I have found light, hope and truth. I have found the Way. I belong to somebody who treasures me, and will never break a promise to me.

I belong to God, I am a daughter of the King, an heir to a royal home. I am worthy because He has made me worthy, and God makes no mistakes. I am worthy of respect, love, honesty, joy, and kept promises.

You tried to make me forget where I came from. You tried to make me believe your lies. You tried to stop me from blessings, from joy, from peace. You tried. You failed.

I have all I ever need in Jesus, and though you may turn against me, though the world may turn it’s back to me, I have everything I need, because of my Savior. He loves me so much that the awareness of it stops my breath, fills me with awe, and brings grateful, happy tears to these green eyes. Jesus cherishes me, is there for me, He never leaves me alone to suffer, nor causes that suffering. He loves me so much He died for me.

Whatever lies you have prepared for me, whatever criticism you have ready, whatever silent treatment, or hateful actions, whatever enmity, misery or treachery you have ready to unleash, you can just save it all. I’m no longer a partner in suffering with you. You and I are through.

I have everything I ever needed, everything you couldn’t and wouldn’t give to me. I have a role model, a best friend, a brother, a father, a partner for life. I will never be alone in this lonely place, and I need to no longer feel afraid even in this scary world.

I’m leaving you. I found somebody new. He has been waiting patiently for me this whole time, waiting for me to accept Him, to accept His love. I have found the true meaning of love, and it is full of unlimited hope. This hope is absolutely, amazingly, unrivaled and unparalleled.

Goodbye, Disrespect. Goodbye, Betrayal. Goodbye, Loneliness, goodbye Liar, goodbye Fear. I am breaking up with you. This is the end of our journey, I have a new path to take.

P.S.

You won’t be missed.

Join me! Break up with anything and everything that doesn’t treat you like you deserve. Break up with the lies that hold you back! You deserve so much more than anything or anyone that hurts you. Jesus is holding out his hand to you today. Take it.

As always, God bless,

Nay Towell

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Have mercy on us, Lord , have mercy on us, for we have endured no end of contempt.
Psalm 123:3

Let us break their chains and throw off their shackles.”
Psalm 2:3

Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted.
Psalm 25:16

I sought the Lord , and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.
Psalm 34:4

Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
John 8:32

It is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure.
Psalm 18:32

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28

Leave your simple ways and you will live; walk in the way of insight.”
Proverbs 9:6

If you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise.
Galatians 3:29

Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Psalm 23:6

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